Day 3.5, 4 & 5~~~~~

Day 3.5
Joining her guild just to get closer to her but she didn't notice that is me.......... After telling her, she just realize about it. Before i go to sleep she ask me for supper!!!! What a surprise!!!! But end up its not a very happy supper....... She still doesn't seem like want to be with me..... Or is she just acting??? Who knows..... Just don't care about it... Almost accident during sending her back. I was too tired and sleepy. She was frightened. I'm sorry about it. I keep on apologize to her but she is not replying me...... Really very sorry. And some more untill now i just don't know how to go Changkat bukit bintang. I had been there before but can't remember the way at all. I'm really need a human GPS to bring me around. Hahaha. Reach home almost 3. Straight away went to bed. Don't want to think so many.

Day 4
Going to Kapar Power Station for T&C but end up few problems occurred. Chemical oil going into my eyes. Feeling pain for half a day. At night only feel better. Thinking of want to tell her or not but just don't know how shud i tell her........ What for i telling her this....... Maybe I just wish to get some care from her. End up I tell her also just the answer making me feel a little bit disappointed. At first I still thought she will asking how is yours eyes....... Did I go see doctors...... but she just reply me "Oh I see". But its ok at least I had tried.  Oh ya, beside all this things I had make a very important decisions. I unfriend her at the facebook. Deleted her account in WeChat. Now just left Whatsapp that connect both of us. Maybe like this I will feel better.

Day 5
The last day of work at Kapar Power Station. Finally i can hand over the HPU to my client. Finally i no need to travel to Klang everyday. Yahoo!!!! Its just like normal day to me but just something happy is the conversation between me and her got a little bit getting better. Somemore one of things that I worried about finally can let go.......... Cause the answer I had get it by today..... Hahaha... but who knows whats the things i worried...... Just me and the god knows......... LOL

Day 3 of lonely life

Wake up so early today. Can't fall asleep again, Life is still going on no matter wat happen. First things to do check my watsapp but it just like normal. Nothing changed. But what is the change that I really want?? She message me?? Or she reply my message?? Miss the time that she will message me and ask me what am I doing....... Already take my lunch or not......... tonight going to find her or not..... But these all had already passed. All the things had changed just my heart remain the same. I wish I can message her like last time but i know it's not the same now. By the way at least a good news for me, she back to KL already!!!! Yahoo!!!! But what really I can do to get back to her side??? Still figuring it out. Now the only things that connect me and her is just a game COC. I only can get information of her through the game. And it might be the only topic i can chat with her. But its ok at least I can at her side a while more longer. 

After a long day of work, nothing much to do at workshop. Only slacking around doing some paper work since my heart can't concentrate on work. But it will getting better. Beside that, need to save my money usage since my financial is facing some problem but i won't regret for helping her.

Day 2 alone life....

Wake up early morning, first thing to do checking over my handphone. Most probably the things I hope is a message from her. I don't know how to talk with her. I just afraid of her will missing from my life. Maybe she will not with me but i choose to be a guardian of her until she get her new guardian. I don't know my choice correct or not but its already choice by me and i will fulfill it.

One whole day at home, didn't feel like going out. Lastly message friends for dinner but end up dinner alone since friends asking me to go club 7 and I don't feel like wan to go. Hopefully my friend know what he was doing. Really don't wan to c any bad things happen in front of me and i will feel guilty since I am the one who ask him to accompany me to Club 7 when I was depressed.

Walking the same path that we walked before after dinner. The feeling of missing her haunt me again. Heart feel lonely but can't do anything. Just can come back here continue my diary. Maybe this is a best place for me to tell my feelings. Nobody gonna realize this if I not telling anybody. It will remain a secret hideout for me.

How is your life in KK??? Everything fine??? Missing you a lot.

The day without her.....

Watching a movie "Equalizer" with two of my friends after having lunch. The movie is an action movie with very bloody screen and very rude. Think of how will she react if she is at my side. She will probably hold my hand so tide. and hide her face at me leg then sneak out a bit to watch the movie. And this action will keep on happen until the movie end. Beside that, I will keep on laughing at her and she will keep on pinch me, Think of these, suddenly a lovely little silly smile appear on my face. But after that tears is running in my eyes as I know this dunno still got the chance to happen or not.

After the movie going to have some drinks at the coffee shop that I firstly date her "Donutes". Sitting at the same seat inside the same coffee shop just the difference is the seat in front of me is now empty. The smile of her face is still floating inside my mind. I Think of her too much. I miss her too much. Will I forget her someday??? No. She will probably live inside my mind and heart so long until one day I lost my memory.

One day has fallen, still got many days to go. Can really let go her??? The diary here most probably will help me record it. And this is the Day 1.